Hi Mum, 6 months have passed since your passing and I miss you so very much, Joel has turned 6 and your birthday will be with us very soon, Joel wants to make you a card with lots of flowers on it and wants me to take him to where we committed your ashes to the sea as he wants to put his card in and let the waves take it to you, I have told him we cant put it in the exact place but I will take him down to Eastham Ferry and he can send his card to you from there, Mum I feel so lost without you, the things I have wanted to tell you or discuss with you and it still hurts every time I realise I can't ring you or come to see you, I hope everyday that you are close by and know what I want to say to you, I love you Mum and miss you always, Joel also misses you a lot here is a photo of him on his birthday, I am putting a pic of Lexi on too as he is almost 6mths old now and he has changed so much he doesn't look like the same foal, love you lots Mum xxxxx